No more bitterness, not quite sweet, but at least the bitter is gone

I feel bad I've left this blog all week long with that bitter post. I promise I got over it, actually by Monday I was feeling a lot better about things (the chiro always helps things). I've been busy busy busy yet again. I don't know how I have time for a full-time job, but I somehow manage to squeeze it in, with little time to do laundry and other necessary things to live or just use my lunch hour to get things in. This week for sorority we did an exchange with a fraternity. We played a game, I can't even remember the name of it. The basic point you were tied to someone and had to go all the way to the Smiths on 8th and 9th and there was two cars of people looking for you. Well, since I had a huge purse, wasn't really in the mood to run that far and I was with a guy feeling the same way, we ran (hiding behind cars) across the parking lot and just drove there. I know we cheated, but not like there was a big prize at the end. After we were running we were getting to know each other. He guessed me right at 22 and guess how old he was? Yup, a little 18 year old. I think younger then my little sister. I was like dude I'm old haha. He was still a nice kid and talking to him sure beat trying to run around in the dark. On Friday was the much anticipated Engineering Iditarod at the U. It was the thing I was working at my old job for so long trying to get prizes for. I did end up with my coveted autographed picture. My Grandparents were both able to come, including my Grandpa who was part of our team and even sported our uniform. My Grandma was afraid I wouldn't win the picture so she made me a poster just in case with all his pictures on it. I must say I like it very much.

(Here's one she took of our team and sled I

haven't uploaded the pictures I took yet)

Saturday early morning was the last practice for our primary program. I honestly can say I love my calling. Especially teaching the young kids, they do/say the funniest stuff. That night me and my mom went back to the church to watch the relief society broadcast and have a dinner. It was very tasty. We both go so tired when we got home and were in bed way before 10. We decided they must have put sleeping pills in our food. Not like I did too much during the day, I cleaned a bit, but mostly sat and watched college sports after a short trip to the grocery store. Today was the program, I was worried how my kids would do in front of an audience. I only had one girl who didn't want to get up, I stood up with her and ended up saying her part which didn't really surprise me. Everything else was fine, except I don't know who's brilliant idea it was to put the three year old on the chair that controls the audio and makes the pulpit go up and down. Even I wanted to press the buttons and to a kid it was the hardest thing not to touch it. I probably told them 10 times during it to not touch, then they'd yell I wasn't I just wanted to look at it. Well that's about it. I feel like I"m forgetting some large event of the week and I sure feel busier then this post makes it seem. I hope this week continues going well. I closed my first loan by myself last week (its actually only the second closing I've ever done) my manager looked over it after and said nothing was wrong and the guy I did it for was extremely nice (much better then the first one) and even said I was very good at what I do, which made me feel better. I feel like I'm settling in better. I had a busy day Friday and paperwork to look forward to tomorrow, but being busy at least makes it go by faster. Well here's to a good Monday (it has to go fairly ok, I got all my laundry done tonight :)

Bitter.

This weekend I was bitter.  Bad, I know.  I think the fact I knew I was bitter is probably a good sign, in that it isn't permanent.  I'm pretty sure I know the reasons behind this, none of which I'm about to disclose on this.  I do however feel bad for the people who had to put up with me and those who I met for the first time and now probably think this is my permanent state.  I actually can't remember being this mean in quite awhile.  It wasn't anyones fault but my own, I just felt like being mean.  It was so bad I walked into church and told Chalice flat out I'm not in the mood to fake smile or have conversations with anyone.  Maybe that's one good reason I'm a primary teacher you HAVE to put on a smile and your patience definitely gets tested.  We've been practicing for our program, which I can barely sit through we've practiced so much now, let alone 3 year olds they start to lie down in their chairs and I just let them do it, at least they aren't yelling and running around.  I decided tomorrow after work and a much needed chiropractor appointment (another bitter story in itself I asked to leave early for the wrong day so hopefully they're understanding) I'm going to get my hair cut and other needed things I've been putting off to hopefully make me feel better.  Well, I'm working on my bitterness (I know its probably just a thing that needed to run its course and I am looking forward to this week)  Sorority has been fun, we have a barnyard dance coming up and exchanges with this cute fraternity who brought us a rose and wrote a poem (I know how cute is that??)  Wow, I"m starting to get all over the place and don't feel like fixing my wording and transitions so I'll just end now, have a fantabulous Monday!

A little update

I've had quite the adventurous week.  It was nice to have Monday off with the holiday (although I think it spoiled me a little too much)  I was at the branch this week and getting into the swing of things a little more, it's weird there are some changes from when I was there so I always feel like I have to double check myself and probably sound like I don't know anything in the process.  I also joined a sorority with Sam (I can't remember if I already blogged about it or not).  No worries it's an LDS one at the U we're in the Rho chapter and seems like we'll have a lot of fun.  We meet on Wednesday nights and have our induction banquet this week.  Last week we also did exchanges on Thursday night with this fraternity.  We thought it'd be a small group going to like Cold Stone, no there was like 50 guys at a house.  They were all really sweet and made sure the girls got ice cream first.  It was something extremely out of my comfort zone, but quite a fun adventure.  While we were waiting to go on the exchange another fraternity asked a few of us to sit in on a courtship question/answer panel.  It was interesting/kind of funny to hear what guys were thinking, again something out of my comfort zone (I blame Sam on doing that one).  On Saturday after a work barbque I went to Taylor's birthday party, she just turned 7 I can't believe how old she is.   It was getting dark and I started taking pictures (Aspen was the only one who'd pose for me) it was so funny though my flash is so bright and I have to hold out the shutter so long to get anything to show up.  She would hold open her eyes thinking that would help.  Here's a few of her and Taylor.

Besides that I've been getting a lot of reading in, in a way it's nice to have an hour lunch.  I also decided no more excuses and I need to start back at the gym again.  I used that I was too sick from what I had before, then my wrist was hurt, well no matter what is going on I just need to go.  I can see how quickly all that work before will just be undone.  And for whatever reason lately I've had a huge appetite, which makes it worse.  Hopefully, I can jump back in and have no excuses.  Well I can't believe how fast the weekend went, I keep thinking how badly I already need a vacation, that can't be good!

An eventful week

I haven't been this excited for a weekend in a long time.  Not because I have exciting weekend plans, but just that the week is over.  I was in training all week for my new job as a loan officer.  It was actually really good.  It was a lot of information to take in and I first I thought there was no way, but now I'm feeling much more comfortable with it all.  I go to the branch next week which I'm sure will be a completely new experience.  On another note, this being the main reason this week was so eventful was the branch I used to work at was involved in an armed robbery on Wednesday.  It was interesting, I didn't realize how hard I took it until that night.  I wasn't even there, but watching the security video from the news is what did it.  Many of my closest friends were involved and just watching it was intense.  I've told them I can't imagine how they feel right now.  My friend Sammi did a post (her blog is linked to mine) and I really liked what she said.  After hearing some of their stories, and even though it was a horrible situation, there were a lot of little blessings in it and things could have gone much worse then they did.  I'm hoping I can snap out of it, I've had a very hard time sleeping, the nighttime scares me, and when I drive at night I put my pepper spray in my lap because I'm worried something will happen while I'm stopped at a red light.  I think some of why I feel this way comes from I used to work there and it hits really close to home, knowing a lot of my very closest friends were involved and knowing I'm not starting at a credit union again, what if it happens to me?  I just really hope they catch the guy and lock him up forever.  And since I don't want to end this post on that note, I decided this weekend to use my built up energy for something productive.  I dejunked my room.  Most of you who know me and have been in my room know I have a lot of things.  And most things I keep that have any memory to me at all.  Well, this weekend I decided I needed to let go of those less important things.  One example I loved the 101 Dalmatians as a kid.  Well my dad bought me a box of tissues with a picture of them on the side (yeah I know random huh?) I used to tissues up probably a year ago, but I still kept the box.  So that's one example of things that just needed to be thrown away.  Well three huge black garbage bags, one white one and several items to be put downstairs later I feel much better.  I'll post a pic of during the craziness and one after.

Before....

And after!