What a crazy past few weeks. Exactly three weeks ago my Grandma was taken to the emergency room, because of breathing problems thought mostly because of her history with emphysema. It was only realized after she had pneumonia as well as a mild heart attack somewhere in there. After a weeklong hard fought battle, she passed away surrounded by our family on Tuesday, May 11. It has been one of the hardest things I've been through and I know as time goes on, it may get harder. We had our first Sunday dinner without her there this past Sunday and it just felt so empty. I know eventually I'll slowly begin to heal. I find the greatest comfort knowing as long as I live my life being the best person I can be and keeping close to Heavenly Father I will see her again someday. In a way watching her during that week helped me let go, I knew how much she was suffering and that she was able to be released from her worldly body pains was a good comfort during such a hard time. I also had the opportunity to put together a "life video" if you will for the viewing and funeral. It was neat being able to look through all her pictures (JJ just happened to get a copy of every picture she had on her computer a few months ago) and seeing what she's done in life. She was so funny, she'd speak her mind and never left you guessing what she thought, and she was so pretty. I tell everyone I want to grow up and look just like her, not a lot of people would say that and truly mean it about their grandparents, but if I happen to get her genes in my older years I will feel very blessed. I feel very lucky I was able to have her as a grandmother for 22 years of my life. She was such a huge part of my life and in a way that makes this process harder, but I don't have any regrets. I now have all the memories of the past 22 years. I will work a little harder each day in honor of her and strive to become a better person to one day see her again.
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