I must say I love to write, I don't love taking tests but I love to write. I write to vent, to get ideas, to just get my thoughts flowing. I decided that's what this post is. Today I went to a softball practice, I think it's been a good four maybe five years since I've done that. I couldn't have picked a colder day either. It's Chalice's last year to play and they need another pitcher. She volunteered to try it and since I pitched I offered to help. We started practicing in the house with a squishy ball just getting form down (no we didn't even get yelled at once by my parents maybe after you get to a certain age they're just happy you still communicate with each other?) She had practice today and her coach asked her to get there half hour early to practice. I got off work a little early and went to help out. She actually caught on very nicely. She used the form I taught her at first then as she practiced realized what would work best for her. When I pitched I wasn't fast at all, but I was very accurate. She was kind of the same way, hopefully she has a stronger arm and can get faster. I also helped her coach with some fielding lessons, yeah I know laugh all you want. Let alone my back is already not 100% since that accident, but I thought for first time coming back I didn't do half bad. I think I'll stick with school and not depend on making it pro anytime soon haha. Speaking of school I buy my cap and gown stuff tomorrow! Yeah I absolutely can't believe it either. It's a scary thought. I've continued applying for every job I find with no luck at all. I have no idea what's going to happen. I also keep thinking I"m going to Guatemala three weeks after I graduate and I"ll be gone for a week. Maybe it's best to not find something until when I get back, but still that makes me nervous waiting that long. I still haven't received my passport in the mail. I think it still has about two more weeks, but I"m really excited to get it. I've had thoughts of traveling to Ireland possibly even the end of this year. I figure I don't have any major responsibilities now I might as well live it up. Speaking of major responsibilities as I was driving today I realized how grateful and lucky I am to no longer have a car payment. I"m sooo glad I was able to pay it off so soon. It's been nice not worrying about things like that lately. The only set bill I have is my phone then credit cards, but that's just what I put on them each month since I use it like a debit card, I feel very lucky to be in that position especially with how the economy is. Man I've jumped from one thing to the next. So tomorrow we tape Newsbreak for Thursday night's airing. Luckily I'm just audio assistant this time. It was pretty rough during our rehearsal Monday so hopefully things get back on track. Friday I"m shooting another Jazz game and it's my wonderful Grandmother's 80th birthday! Can you believe it? I feel sometimes like she's my age by stuff she says. I think everyone should have the privilege of having a grandma as awesome as mine and I"m being completely honest when I say that. Well I have to get up for my 7:30 class tomorrow, my body is already telling me to sleep-in. I'll try to think of a more structured and topic post. I think I do these because all my papers I write for school have to be on a certain thing and this can be whatever I feel like and well sometimes I feel like being totally random.
So I've been trying to stay as busy as possible this week to keep my mind off things. I think I've been doing pretty good. The only bad thing is I've been staying busy with everything except what I should, mainly homework and I"m now paying the price. I won't even tell you all how far behind I am because I would be yelled by everyone for doing this and not that. Don't get me wrong I've also done productive things like looking for a job. I've applied at a few more places still no luck. I also went to the temple last week. It was very nice minus the fact I went on a day school was out and I had to wait a long time because all the mutual groups were there, but it was still good I couldn't think of a better place having to wait in line then the temple. I've also started back up my gym time, I've lost two more pounds yay! I know eventually I"m going to plateau off then I"ll be sad, but that's ok. I also shot the Jazz game and watched it Saturday what an intense game, but fun to be at. I am now playing catch up with homework, but I don't think I could have concentrated enough last week so I figure it might be better this way. I also got my first letter today! I was soo excited. He's doing great and I know he'll make a great missionary and they're lucky to have him. I really better keep this one short and get back to work, just wanted to update letting you know I'm still alive and doing much better.
So today I had to say goodbye to my little missionary. First things first I realized I need to clear something up. My family and most of my friends know the entire situation, but I'll just explain it in case you don't and I sound like I'm robbing the cradle. Cameron is 22, he just decided to wait until he was more ready and is now going to Oklahoma on his mission. He leaves for the MTC tomorrow. I will be completely honest when I say I had no idea it'd be this hard. I already miss him like crazy and we just talked on the phone 5 hours ago. I keep telling myself 2 years will fly by. Or think of it as 24 fast Sundays or just look at it in six month increments. It was also hard because I had to shoot the Jazz game tonight and we say goodbye on the phone right before I went. And I mean I knew I cared about him, but I didn't realize just how hard it'd hit that I'd miss him so much. He's also become a really good friend. And I know I can still write, but it's the little day to day things like texts asking how my day is or things like that which can't be replaced with letters and emails. Also to clear things up I didn't promise any waiting. We talked and agreed it was best for the both of us. On one hand I"m not actively looking for a husband to marry in a month, but the other I'm not sitting at home every night waiting for him to get back. We also didn't have enough time to know if anything further could even happen. So we decided if I"m still around when he gets back we can try to pick things up where they left, no expectations either way. I had no idea a couple months ago when we met things would turn up like this. I remember when we first were talking both of us saying we aren't looking for anything right now, boy we had no idea. I also thought I had passed the age of having a missionary boy. I'm already 21 almost 22 myself, boys are all generally back by now. It's what I get making fun of all the girls who wait. Well take that back not make fun of just not ever really understand. Well I for sure know this one is probably all over the place, it doesn't help I"m writing it through tears either. Today I started crying at work twice, I was like oh no don't start that. I think I just need a couple days get it all out then I'll be totally fine and as long as I stay busy and not dwell on it too much time will fly by and he'll be back before I know it. Well my pictures from tonight's game are almost done. I"m going to post this and get in bed for my early morning class tomorrow :(
Yesterday Cameron and I decided to take a trip to Temple Square. We started out having dinner in Murray at the Red Robin. It was very tasty and I got my traditional mushroom hamburger and strawberry lemonade with real strawberries (crazy huh no diet coke) We then headed down. We wanted to watch the Mormon Tabernacle Choir rehearse, but it didn't start until 8:00. We walked around and took some pictures. I'm going to attempt with the posting sometimes it doesn't work so well when I do multiples. I'm only going to put a few on here, the rest are on my Facebook. On there are the ones of just the temple, I'm only uploading the ones of both of us to here. It was very difficult since my camera is so big with the lens I have on it. I had a hard time doing the self-portrait of us. We did ask one lady to take it of us in front of the temple one far away with the entire temple in it, the other a closer one of us. It was very nice and a very easy thing to photograph. We were wondering how many times it's been photographed and couldn't even guess. Well tonight we're making homemade pizza and watching the Utah game I'll see if I can get him to smile in at least one.
I've applied at I think three more places (I've done so much applying I forget how many) this week and still nothing. Although one position I did hear they ended up canceling so yeah. I also went to do sort of an interview with my old work about the loan officer position. With my schedule still needing to be in school the next month and a half I"m just not sure it's going to work out to be honest, I said no hard feelings, but he's going to interview everyone else and let me know next week what he decides. This is one of those things I truly have no idea what is going to happen with a job at all. I'm not sure if I'm quite ready to look outside the state yet either. I need benefits with health insurance on one hand, but on the other its sooo hard right now to find any of that. I'll just keep looking for stuff and see what comes up. On other news I was sitting at work yesterday when the department chair for communication walked by. She's all KayCee did you know you're on the front page of the department's website. I'm like uhh no. Well I got to look and guess what there I am. You can look here too www.communication.utah.edu I was like yikes bad picture I didn't even know it existed. I'm like of course you choose the worst one probably with my alien red eyes. Well I decided to take today and tomorrow off everything so I at least get a mini spring break from everything. I'll keep you up to date if I do anything fun!
Wow where do I even begin. It really hasn't been that long since I've posted on here, but I feel so many things have happened and I know I'm going to forget some of them. On very happy note I ordered my graduation announcements today!!! I am soooo excited it's actually hitting me. PS If you'd like an invitation and don't think I have your address either leave a comment on here or email it to me kayceepup at hotmail along with that comes the job hunt. I applied today for a position as web content producer with channel 13 and a position with channel 4 producing their Good Things Utah show. I actually love that show and think it'd be fun to produce, but I'm just graduating have little experience and its only PT I'll need something with benefits. At 13 it'd be a cool position, but I'm not sure if I'm qualified enough. On the other hand I just found out a full time loan officer position opened at DFCU the branch I used to work at. That would be a steady job, good benefits and I feel comfortable with them already. On the other hand I wouldn't be doing what I've majored in. I actually applied for that one today too to see what happens and at least they'll know I'm interested in it. So my job hunt has officially begun. If anyone sees anything open up let me know. With how the economy is right now it really scares me one reason the bank job looks so appealing, but we'll just have to see. On other news I applied for my passport on Friday. It went much smoother then I thought. I went to the walk-in one at the downtown post office. Longest thing was waiting in line about 15 minutes. Luckily I had everything ready to go, it maybe took 5 minutes when he was with me. Other people in there were all over the place or had things wrong. I went to Walgreens to get the photo. THey pulled out a camera from 1990 to use and didn't even let me see it before he printed it. I look possessed, but oh well. My neck bruise has come back too and so I look like I get beat in it, but oh well that was 8 bucks down the drain. The website made it seem so strict, but I totally could have taken my own and it would have been much better. Other fun things I've been up to, its spring break this week yay! I'm going to work a little and just kinda hang out and see what fun things I feel like doing this week. I've been taking so many trips I'm probably not going to do anything, just relax and prepare to finish out the last few weeks of the semester. Cameron and I went to Park City last week. I've never been during winter and it was a lot of fun to walk Main Street. I felt bad for him, he's such a big snowboarder and it was killing him to not be up there haha and we were like the only ones not dressed in ski suits. We ate at a little Mexican place I love in Park City. They have the world's best flautas. I've done a lot of other fun things this past week, but it all seems mushed together and then I forget some of them. Well keep your fingers crossed with the jobs and I'll keep you all up to date!
Well hello everyone. Since I'm not working on my homework I figured I can post on this. This past week well Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I flew down to Arizona with Chalice for Monica's funeral. For those who don't know Monica is my cousin. She was 32 and has always been confined to a wheelchair. Even though they lived in Phoenix I still loved seeing her and things she was up to. It just won't be the same when they're here and she's not there asking for the arf arf (the dog) or other things. She got sick suddenly and it all happened quickly. It was a good thing in a way but still hard to go through. I'm very glad to know what I know and we can see family again. It was a nice funeral and focused more on the good of her life then being sad. On a good note it was very warm there which was a nice change especially with all the snow today. I also got pretty sick and lost my voice Friday, which is never any fun. I'm feeling much better today, but slept all day yesterday and drank an entire thing of orange juice. Today was Sun's birthday and I stopped by to wish her happy birthday. This is a picture JJ took of us so Sun can show her family. She talks so much about us in her blog she said that her family wants to know what we look like. I know not the best day for a picture, but it works. On another note and I'm not sure how I feel making this all official on here, but for right now and at least these two weeks before Cameron leaves we're officially going out. I have absolutely no idea where things will go after that but I figure I can just be in the moment for now. I promise I"m not distracting him too bad, he's still going no matter what. I'm helping in any way to make sure it's not a problem and we'll decide where it's going when it gets here. I know I know I'm going to get a million questions, but it's what we decided so now I can't say I've never had a bf :)
So I'm sitting at work with the kid next to me talking to his mom and I totally can't concentrate so I"ll just babble on this about nothing I decided. Surprise surprise I did my homework yesterday for the class this week, I know crazy stuff huh. I'm still debating if I"m going to Arizona for the funeral. One second I make up my mind I"m going then I think of something else and I change my mind back to not going, very frustrating. And I need to decide pretty dang quick. I called this auto pilot because that's what I feel I've been running on lately. Yesterday I couldn't remember specific details of how things went, it all just was grouped together as one big I"m not controlling this all day. Last Friday I got my hair done yay! I cut it pretty short just a little below my chin. I got a little bit of subtle blonde and red highlights throughout it too and the rest I put brown back in it. I think I really like it, it's super easy in the morning, but I don't have the trusty ponytail to fall back on, but really it only takes me five minutes to do so I don't know why I'm complaining haha. It was definitely a much needed change though. On other exciting news I actually stepped on the scale yesterday. I know I know, that could be terrifying, but I've lost 10 pounds since January!! I hardly ever let myself get weighed just because I keep saying it's not about the weight its about feeling and being healthier, but come on losing 10 pounds surely helps. I've sorta slacked lately on going. With getting my tooth out being in Texas and shooting the games a good portion of the week I just didn't have time. I try to at least (besides with my tooth) make it to the gym twice a week if there's game days the running of the ESA are my other exercise days. I can't remember if I posted this officially or not, but I did buy my plane ticket to Guatemala for May 23-31. I'm very excited although I"m not going to lie nervous too. I have an appointment Friday to get my passport, which reminds me I need to print all the forms for that. Ahhh the kid is still talking about nothing for the last half hour, but I better go attempt some homework.